A genuine reflection (part 1)

I just had a brain wave, but totally forgot what I wanted to rave about. I’m currently at Wally World and in a reflective state. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking with the help of MR who has been a blessing. I confided in her and she gave me the idea for a way to exorcise demons (figuratively speaking) out of my life. Letting go of things has never been harder, but I’ve never felt better from doing it. Starting from today, I’m letting go of the “shoulds” and working with the present day. Life is too goddamned short and precious for bullshit, you know? I’m an auntie now (niece from my sister and nephew from my other sister-from-another-mother) and that has given me cause for some serious reflection. For all I know, it could be me next although that is not in the works right now. lol. Sorry, moms (both of you. lol). When the time is right, I will talk about an issue that has been a seldom-talked about problem, but happens to have played a big part in things. Sorry for speaking in riddles or cryptically, but all shall be made clear in good time. Anyway, the point of this post was to reflect on my life and the blessings that have come my way. I feel very reconnected to my family and I cannot express how this makes me feel. All the “loneliness” of the past years has just melted away and it’s very humbling to be a part of a beloved family unit. Things have never been better with MA and RE as far as communications go and whether I like to admit it or not, I’m truly grateful for the state of relations between us right now. I’m learning how to be a more effective partner with M who is more like me than I care to admit. lol. We both tend to talk in riddles at times and of course, signals get crossed and misinterpreted. Our saving grace has been the fact that we both don’t like to sleep on an angry mind and more often than not, we talk things out till we are blue in the face(s). I just want to thank M for speaking his mind and the truth even when it earned him my anger at times. In the particular case I’m writing about, it was a solid case of the truth hurting and me wanting to ‘lash’ out at the source of my hurt. In the end, what he said ended up being a blessing in disguise because it galvanized both of us into action and we Got Things Done! There is no better feeling than that of accomplishment and that, my friends, is what I’m celebrating today. Accomplishment in the little things of life. Not getting a degree or earning a six figure salary. For now, I am happy with celebrating the simple act of forgiveness, humility and continual education from all areas of life.


Yay! I got a compliment. :)

I was called a Get-It-Done type of gal by my supervisor today. πŸ™‚ I feel like I may have found my niche with this job I have. Call me crazy, but me likes my job. Talk to me about it in a couple of months when I’ve been chewed up and spit out by the students. πŸ˜€ Nahh, I think I’m likeable and I will make an effort to not be the total dumbass. *crossing fingers and toes* The other compliment I got was being told I may have the tracings of a southern accent! lol. Now, M knows how much I try to imitate the soft drawl. M’s mom is the epitome of the Southern belle and even J sounds like her mom too. I am definitely in a Git-Er-Done kind of mood today so I hope that stays with me throughout the week. Wanna drink to that?

I really feel like I’ve mentally prepared for this week. I visited Bed Bath & Beyond to get a small dry erase board for my little office. Judging from the amount of Post-It notes in front of my wall, I need a second and larger dray erase board. lol. On that note, I’ll sign out. For now. *cue evil laugh*