Overthinking


I’ve got a problem with living with my outputs of decision-making processes. Namely, instead of rallying behind a chosen position, I painstakingly review all the ways alternate routes would have played out. Lately, performing this exercise leaves me more dissatisfied than ever and I would like to break that cycle. The analytical side of me feels that anything less than a thorough after-the-fact analysis is putting my head in the sand but I’m starting to realize that I need to let the pragmatic side of me breathe a little more. That means acknowledging that there is no one perfect choice! Life, as with code, is a series of trade-offs. The best thing I can do is ensure that I give myself room for introspection/deep analysis prior to decision making so that when my choice is made, I can move forward with all confidence in my decision. When all is said and done, there is always an opportunity to course-correct. It may not be immediate but it is there.

In this same vein, I would like to acknowledge finally being able to inspect my past without shame. Without airing too much dirty laundry, let’s just say I had a rocky transition to relocating across the Atlantic. After weathering several storms in my transition to adulthood, I am still here. Standing strong. Feeling my pulse beating hard against my throat. I feel inordinately grateful to be here. Present, thriving, and loved well. Here’s to breaking out of molds and loving the skin I’m in.